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The dictionary could not hold the weight of the word, 

When she opened her mouth to say it. 

As her tongue slurred,  

Along the edges of her dry mouth. 

While her vision blurred, 

Under the hot afternoon sky. 

And the engine of her car whirred, 

As she pressed the accelerator.

She purred, 

Smoothly. 

And it stirred, 

All the very many misconceptions,

About her in the world. 

Telling lies.

What is it about a lie that disgusts you?
Is it how you weren't able to see through me and you thought that only you knew.
Parts of me that no one else could even reach?
And how now, our car has halted at a dead end with a long screech?
Or was it how you lost the game before it even began,
I beat you to the finish line even before you ran?
How juvenile are you to point a finger at me!
Don't you know it's necessary to lie to keep our sanities?
If I tell you the truth, the differences will come out.
The 'other' is always intimidating and it repeatedly beckons doubt.
Violence, anger and shame.
I don't want these adjectives assigned to my name.
So to protect you and I from the miseries of the world.
I'd spin and spin the truth until my fork is twirled.
In lies that may eventually become the truth.
If it hurts you so much I'd pour you some vermouth.
But never would I stop lying to save the day.
A lie isn't a lie if you don't get to know about it today.

Multiple Sclerosis.

Although the camera is rolling,
The characters are playing,
And the film is being imprinted..
The quality is bad.
Although the story is progressing,
The work is showing,
The outcome is tangible..
The director is mad.
Although the sound is perfect,
The continuity is checked,
The marketing intact..
The movie falls short, just a tad.

No more, no more.
I am not too sure.

Ma.

Because you are and always will be.

Nirulas

I am not asking you to become a fancy five star cafe.
You would lose your charm.
However, your popularity is dropping day by day.
As your food deliveries aren't even lukewarm.
But your ice creams are and it's shameful.
Because they were always tasteful.
The small hot chocolate fudge and the 21 love scoop.
They were always the favorite among my peer group.
But no one wants to visit you anymore.
They think your servers are lazy and the decor is an eyesore.
However, I still have faith in you.
As I believe that one day you will pull it off and make your way through.
Between all the hardships of competing with upcoming brands.
I know the customers have all unreasonable demands.
Because they want to pull you down.
They believe that you've been failing so far and eventually you will drown.
But you have have to sail along.
With these Coco Berry, Gelato and Baskin Robbin vans that wouldn't last long.
If only you'd serve with a smile and at some Earthly prices .
And change your target audience and publicity devices !

Move it.

I know you have always been a difficult catch,
And now it is time for me to bolt the latch.
I know you'll learn to forgive this wannabe possessor,
Sometimes jealous, insecure and even a nagging presser.
Because you are my giving baby,
My Kryptonite who rescues me when I'm needy.
Oh darling, listen and come back to me as soon as possible,
Otherwise I'd become a useless melted popsicle.
And rivulets of juices will go waste as tears,
I'd become barren, dry and would only drink a gallon of beer.
To deliberately offend your pride,
By taking on to others for a joy ride.
Hump, is an asset of a camel but I can alter that.
Leap, is an abrupt transition which can also act as a welcome mat.
To all those I've been denying those provisions.
Because you said you would satisfy this rescission.
Sadly, you are far away and caged with duty.
And overlooking the vital Virginia spring beauty.
That only waits to prosper in your company,
For your impact, trace and custody.
Evade, leave, manipulate, lie or deceive...I don't care.
I'm tired of being your wet dream on an un-rocking chair!!!

We Cry Together

When Acceptance Doesn't Want A Symphony,
To Play Its Notes Of Presence.
When Your Lover Is Always Baffled,
By Your Past And All Revelations.
You Feel Tired And Cheated More Than Ever,
And You Want To Go Back To The World Of Lies.
But Remember That Denial Won't Do You Any Good.
You Better Inculcate The Truth Of The Times.
Tides May Rise And They May Even Fall,
But The Vast Ocean Remains Forever.
You May Like Raindrops Than Sunshine,
But I Love It When For Any Reason, We Cry Together.

Hello, I love you won't you tell me your name?

"............
'Apna naam to batati ja..'
I love that pick up line.
I don't know why good looking men don't use it in our country.
It can really make them much more tempting.
Most people in India hit on you by calling you 'beautiful'..
That's just so fucking lame.
Beauty is a virtue. Yes, but it is not a turn on!
That's why I love the rikshaw pullers.
They really know how to make a woman feel awesome about herself.
I love the way they touch themselves to let me know that they like me.
Seriously.
If only.....they had some good sense about their body hygiene...life would have been raw and fantastic.
Sigh. You don't get em all!..........."

- One amazing woman.

Inspired.

In seven years each and every cell is completely replaced in our bodies.
Take some inspiration from that!
That's all.
Aloha.

Me.

When I Was In Class 9, My Sister Was A Student Of English Literature At The University Of Delhi.
It Was A Bad Choice To Challenge Her To A "Who Has A Better Vocabulary" Contest.
I Tried My Best And The My " Obnoxious-Catharisis " Couldn't Stand A Chance Against Her 'Ideological Idyosyncrasies'.
I Loved Losing That Day.
Because The Experience Of Learning Was Bliss To Me.
I Miss Those Days.
Now, Whatever I Know Is The End Of Everything.
If There Is Something I Don't Know Then It Isn't Important.
I Wish This Could Be My Arrogance Talking.
But It Is My Ignorance That Speaks.
Taekwondo, Guitar , Books, Driving, Tennis, Pets - I've Forsaken Them All.
What's Next ?
Family And Friends? The Latter Doesn't Mean Anything Anyway. I'm Beginning To Lose Interest In The Former Too.
So That Leaves Me To Me.
Me.

Breaking The Chain

I swore on a beloved,
I wouldn't hold the strings,
That tied me down to that same fog,
That could kill or choke me.
I tried for the first fifteen days,
Didn't spend a penny,
on the miserable labels,
of 'Classic Cuts' and 'Dunhills'
Until the urge overtook the need,
To endeare for my safety,
And out came my wallet,
with the heavy greens,
That had multiplied themselves,
In the last few weeks,
For i thought I had let go of the curse,
That i endured for years and months,
But instead,I had just fallen short,
Of patience and will power,
And took the pack of the 'white lights',
That shone in the dark times,
With me in my loneliness,
My only companion and my soulmate,
These excuses dragged me,
and i lit it up and took it inside of me.
Breakin habits,isn't easy.
You find alternatives,to come back to thee.
Sorry honey,I can't be strong,
Forgive me.

For You And Me..

Let us not wait for chaste to get over,
Until we lay in each other,
And bid the Sun, Moon and stars goodbye,
With veins bleeding, as we lie,
So not succumbing to fears, very worldly,
Instead breaking free from the chains of Treaty,
That bind us to cry and feel melancholy,
For there be no reason for you and I, to be guilty,
We have committed crimes that the world says so,
But reality bestow a- no,
For those who can't live thy dreams,
Of life and destiny, they write,
Not themselves but let others decide,
For them and for everybody,
Forgive those and I, to be thee,
Though, I'm leaving with my beloved,
And do not even have thy luggage,
Or haveth courage I,
To be someone else and deny,
Myself needs and angst of love and making,
With unconventions through tracing,
My past that beckons my future,
I can not agree and say - 'Yes Sir !'
So I lie with tears in eyes,
And my lover by my side,
I'm leaving soon, may it be,
Give me a last kiss and forever sleep with me!